puzzles and missing pieces

so the dating world is weird and crazy for this quirky guy and i am constantly asked my Kelly and other friends what i am looking for and i never have a strait forward answer. but do you remember doing jigsaw puzzles as a kid?

you spend hours upon hours - days even - trying to finish it. building the outside edges to try and build a surrounding wall of puzzle pieces - a foundation for the puzzle if you will - building up the outside really isn't the hard part - it's what comes next - the inside - you study the picture on the the box to try and create your piles of pieces that look like they go together - you finally have it all ready to go - you slowly piece it all together but in the back of your mind you know what lies before you as you get closer and closer to completion. it's the trees, grass, sky, whatever similar pieces that all look the same - but there is only one piece that can fit - sometimes you get tired and start trying to force the pieces into place - then you just wear out and give up - then one day you walk by the incomplete puzzle and it all makes sense - it's when you least expect it and really had no interest in completing the puzzle, cause you busied yourself with other things.

i think that is what i am looking for that piece that makes the puzzle complete but really it's not about being complete

it's about everything falling into place.

i want someone who appreciates creative and personal freedom like i do.

in my dreams she is probably a musician - or a photographer - ideally she would be both. she would inspire me to be a better friend, a better father and a better artist.

i want a partner in mischief who will jump in the car when i decide it's time for a random spontaneous road trip to a small TX town.

really - we all know how much i love myself - so i guess i just need the female version of me

is that possible?

can that really exist? in this cheeseball hopeless romantics heart - yeah she's out there - but like me probably too shy to ever speak up

blah blah blah blah

so i've become really involved with group of people around the world that are happy being "quirky alone"

i am happy being that way - but deep down i know something is missing here.

i have always seemed to have that golden touch - everything that i become involved with just "works"

but when it comes to relationships - man i can really fuck those up - i try convincing myself that i am better off alone - and i think i am better off alone - FOR NOW

but i really am an extreme romantic - and i hate to let that go to waste - so i just offer up advice to other's who lack it to help them make their mates feel loved and adored.

i am staring to really crave a person to focus my "extreme romantic" side on. i know now isn't the time - but i sort of can't wait till that girl walks into my life and takes my breath away.

but i think that person is going to have to find me - i think the cosmic forces that be - are going to bring us together - not me - not her - it would be really fitting if we meet via unconventional and ironic circumstances.

she will love food and traveling and want to consume both at every chance we get. she will love music and like that i want to buy her cute things to wear - she will love writing and want to share her words with me while I share mine with her - the more i think about it - the sadder i get cause i am not sure this person exists.

but i am the eternal optimist so i have to believe that anything is possible

so fate i am here waiting to see what you bring me - and i promise to take care of it.