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i embrace the ecstasy in your thighs
lick your lips, full of lies

your juices make my stomach burn
you tell me, I will never learn

the quiver in your voice makes it clear
you were wrong, being so austere

this rendezvous shall set you free
it's out secret, just you and me

?fair?

it's impossible to refashion the past
you must mold the future to your liking
your blackening knees tell a sad story
you've gone headlong so many times
how can you manage to sweep away the agony
your sullen eyes break my heart
i can feel your lament from your stares
when was the last time you were embraced
the way you shake tells me you need to feel
flesh upon flesh is something sacred
these hands of mine can catch tears
these arms of mine can comfort
these lips of mine can secure
i want to know you
sorry i am so shy

clutch

Look at you with your pronounced beauty
You are so quick to fall in love
Yet so reluctant to let go of the past
Leave your baggage at the door
Theres no room for it in this heart
Your stories wow me
Your faith cant be altered
Why must you compare me to the flies
The ones that swarm and swill over trash
Trash that doesnt stink but reeks
Reeks of a trollop
I was cut from a different mold
My mother taught me about respect
You deserve that admiration my mom spoke of
Let go of the lasso that has you moored to the past
You arent bound
Youre hanging on
Open your hand and let it go
I have a hand to fill the void of the past

my favorite word and a tune that forever moves me

Leonard Cohen wrote a song....that he never knew would turn into a phenomenon. a song simply titled Hallelujah. my favorite word - has been since i was child. it's used 24 times in the bible. i am not sure where i am it in my religious beliefs at the moment - but it's still a word that resonates in my soul.



i heard there was a secret chord that david played and it pleased the lord but you don't really care for music, do you well it goes like this the fourth, the fifth the minor fall and the major lift the baffled king composing hallelujah

hallelujah...

well your faith was strong but you needed proof you saw her bathing on the roof her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you she tied you to her kitchen chair she broke your throne and she cut your hair and from your lips she drew the hallelujah

hallelujah...

baby i've been here before i've seen this room and i've walked this floor i used to live alone before i knew you i've seen your flag on the marble arch but love is not a victory march it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

hallelujah...

well there was a time when you let me know what's really going on below but now you never show that to me do you but remember when i moved in you and the holy dove was moving too and every breath we drew was hallelujah

well, maybe there's a god above but all i've ever learned from love was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you it's not a cry that you hear at night it's not somebody who's seen the light it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah



Jeff Buckley does my favorite version and no matter how many times i hear it - i still get goosebumps.

retail at a premium price

There is a girl who works in our store
She is the type that every man seems to adore
If her changing eyes turn your way and become lighter
You will see your day turn a whole lot brighter
If you look into her soft beautiful face
Your heart will shift forward and start to race
My heart had never raced when I glanced her way
Until one morning the manager looked at me and said
She is now going to be your boss every day
With eyes and beauty that were in such high demand
Her husband was afraid she would get stolen by another man
He quit his job and started a business of his own
This generated more money and helped keep her at home
Every time I look into her eyes it makes me tremble and shake
Some days I feel my heart begin to break
Work life is painful at our retail store
Each day I see my boss walk through the door
It's hard to work for a girl so beautiful and nice
Her look demands a premium price

- Taken -

Sitting here in this prison cell
Wondering what you’re doing right now

Do you hate me for what I’ve become
Do you hate me cause of the evil I’ve done

Forgive me for crushing on you
Your mouth was beautiful
I couldn’t resist you

With eyes clenched I picture your face
Those fleeting eyes
Imagination take me to that place

My heart turns to cold grey stone
I make up excuses
But the truth cuts to the bone

My face is drenched from a cloud of tears
Vision sustain
Help me fight away these sinister fears

Release this mind ravaged by hate
Take away the pain
Help me before it’s to late

These cries fall on deafened ears
Your mute concern
With a rope I void my 20 years

feel

have you ever felt like your heart would burst
when you didn't know if dying was worse

have you ever felt like you would never be whole
that there would always be something missing from your soul

have you ever felt like you were not needed
that no one would care if your heart never beated

rusted metal

failure is the rusted medal i would never win.
hours lost, i lie to myself as disappointment hovers above me;
siphoning my accomplishments of worth, this empty shell remains.

yesterday was something new, another trial from which i grew.
mistake after mistake you'd think i'd learn, instead i continue to spurn.
one more failure that adds inches to my growing pain.

this wretched world fuels my failure - if only it were easy to leave it all behind!
hovering disappointment and failure begin to descend; splitting me at the blade.
one more day, one more time and i will drop.

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Tears Drop
Candles Drip
Blood Pours
Rain Floods

Life Drains
Truth Hides
Work Kills
People Fail

Power Drains
Money Cheats
Cups Run
Hearts Starve

Answers Melt
Flowers Wilt
I Love
You Hate