you know something.....

i get more work done before 9:30 than i do the entire rest of the day.

just so you know

i am kind of in a snarky mood today

i am fighting off the tears - a good friend has died

he was old and had seen his fair share of accidents. my mom called to tell me my nephew Luke was playing with some of my old stuff and he broke my very first skateboard. :(

R.I.P. my good friend - you will soon become a nice piece of wall art.

walkaway

simple moments are never all that straitforward
you and i - we had fun - the wind in our hair
the ways your eyes sparkled at things uncertain
it takes years for most people to cycle through all these emotions
we had highs - we saw lows - we did things i won't disclose
we fell from grace long ago - don't let the wind leave your sails
struggles are the things that make us stronger
a spark set our hearts ablaze - only to flicker into a phase
your smile is contagious and touched my soul
but i now realize it is time for me to go
with one look you said a thousand words
i won't sweep those moments from the floor
please believe me when i say
i'm not leaving i'm just walking away

i think my head is going to explode

the door to my office is shut - it has been since 6:50 this morning.

i orginally shut it so that i wouldn't be bothered why i downloaded new movie trailers to watch later. but then the pain began to trickle into my head. the funk began to slowly creep into my body.

now i sit here - fighting off self doubt

i don't know what i need - maybe a hug or maybe just the exact right words - really i don't know.

i have no reason to feel this way.

i have tried turning on music but it is all just frustrating me.

my life has been a whirlwind as of late and i think i just need to sit down with some magazine, some sharpies, some paint and a canvas and just create.

it's also NaNoWriMo time again - and i am not sure if i am going to contribute this year.

this isn't some post to try and draw attention it's just me getting the junk out of my head.

i can promise you all one thing - this isn't stress related.