i think my head is going to explode

the door to my office is shut - it has been since 6:50 this morning.

i orginally shut it so that i wouldn't be bothered why i downloaded new movie trailers to watch later. but then the pain began to trickle into my head. the funk began to slowly creep into my body.

now i sit here - fighting off self doubt

i don't know what i need - maybe a hug or maybe just the exact right words - really i don't know.

i have no reason to feel this way.

i have tried turning on music but it is all just frustrating me.

my life has been a whirlwind as of late and i think i just need to sit down with some magazine, some sharpies, some paint and a canvas and just create.

it's also NaNoWriMo time again - and i am not sure if i am going to contribute this year.

this isn't some post to try and draw attention it's just me getting the junk out of my head.

i can promise you all one thing - this isn't stress related.