Friday, April 3, 2009

funeral for a friend - a celebration of life

i start this post off with a video that explains how disappointed i am for who i was and how i still have time to change the me that everyone can still love. it in moments of tragedy when we reflect on how we affect other people and how we really take for granted the people who were in our lives at one point or another.





now to one of the toughest funerals i have ever been to. this morning i went to celebrate the life and mourn the loss of a truly good person. not a hateful or bad bone in her body. someone who with a quick flick of lips to form a smile could change your mood - could lighten a dark room. as i sat in the service my heart broke over and over and over again - for this loss - not for my loss but her family's loss - her roomate - her best friend people i had gotten to know about through stories from Chané - to finally meet them - hug them hold them shake their hands - looking around at the HUNDREDS of people who filled the church - people who were all affected differently by this spark of beauty and grace.

i can't continue living in a moment - for a moment - i need to truly be a selfless person - someone like Chané - who i would walk into work early and see her there already - her telling me "i've been here since 6am cause i had to take a friend to the airport at 5am - you ask her why and the answer is "that's what friends do"

friends are honest to the core (even when it's painful), they are trustworthy and honorable. they stick up for you no matter what - even when you are wrong. so in honor of Chané - as an example to my son and in retribution to all the people who i have hurt in one way or another - this is my statement of change.

i am here to enrich you life - to selflessly compliment your already complete lives - to be there and focus on you when you need someone - but mostly i am here to live life to the fullest and who ever wants to join you are welcome.

i finish this blog with one more song that explains me this week. "...if you want to make it stop, then stop, stop..."