am i reading too much into things?

i am having a hard time these last 24 hours.

i don't know if i am just reading too much into things or if i am paranoid cause this is all so new to me.

i just have the feeling that a hint is being passed my way and i am refusing to get it.

i don't know - i will give it a few more days before i react


Sunday night i met with Nicole to discuss her wants out of this divorce - she was beating around the bush a lot and i just wish she would come out and tell me what she wants. if she wants every single material possession i own than she can have it. she said she wasn't sure what she wanted from me - she was more concerned talking to me about dedicating Rhys to her church and his birthday party.

while i am very interested in his 1st birthday and being involved in whatever way i can - the issue at hand is getting her to stop procrastinating and sign the fucking papers.

i have moved on with my life - i am finally starting to put all the pieces back together and i feel she is holding me back.

i told her how much money i would give her for Rhys - which is more than i need to but really he is my concern.

i know her parents are behind all the procrastination and the greed.

but honestly - WHATEVER

i want it over with

this is going to break me financially - but in the end it will be worth it.

i don't need the money - i just need a "real" friend to bitch about things