i just want to start it all over!!!!

i have had it!

literally - i can not take anymore of the meddling and the drama.

i have a feeling this is going to be an emotionally painful weekend - i am going to see my counselor at 4:00 today. - i am going to see what she thinks - but a lot of what i have to do is at her suggestion - so i am sure she will be supportive - and if she isn't - well honestly i think i am still going to do it.

the cold hard truth is i am breaking up with my friends - the meddle they bring me down and they know all the right buttons to push to keep me down

i have said this tons of times before, but i think it is time. i need a solid positive influence in my life - a leaning post if you will.

it's time for a change of scenery - a change in habits - change in the way i think and act - i am writing this out more for me than for you all to read - but there are something i like to just speak out about publicly.

i guess i will keep you updated on things.

since writing this i have gone from overwhelmed and stressed to excited and relieved.