We are intrepid. We carry on.
yeah so i watched Elizabethtown again tonight - no it isn't a fantastic movie. actually most everyone i know hated it - but me - i connect with it. each time i watch it - something new is revealed to me.
tonight i just left work and came home with the intent of making a felt gun while watching it and nothing else. well watching that movie and writing an email. i have yet to write that email but it will happen after this.
those of you who regularly read this blog - know that at times i am introspective and others i am flat out ridiculous. well the complete and honest truth is - behind all the sarcasm and and the silliness are insecurities. i know this isn't a surprise to anyone but i felt that openly admitting it here - would be a good thing.
i haven't spoken to my father in 10 years - the last thing i said to him was "you know what, you're an asshole" and i hung up the phone.
that was it - that was the last thing he heard me say to him - i felt good when i did it - i was proud of myself - now - tonight - i am so ashamed.
i am no different than the man i had grown to hate - it's time to forgive and forget - i have made some of the same mistakes he has and you know what - he was a poor influence for me - but i think he deserves a second chance. from what my sisters tell me he really hasn't changed at all - but i am not going to let another day go by making him think i hate him and want nothing to do with him. everyday i look in the mirror and i see a spitting image of him - i can't erase my face - i am my fathers son and i am ready to embrace that.
the email i have to write isn't to him - he is going to get a phone call tomorrow p the email is for someone who is really awesome and who has disappointed me a little but - but i think i may have done my fair share of disappointing with them.
goodnight!
tonight i just left work and came home with the intent of making a felt gun while watching it and nothing else. well watching that movie and writing an email. i have yet to write that email but it will happen after this.
those of you who regularly read this blog - know that at times i am introspective and others i am flat out ridiculous. well the complete and honest truth is - behind all the sarcasm and and the silliness are insecurities. i know this isn't a surprise to anyone but i felt that openly admitting it here - would be a good thing.
i haven't spoken to my father in 10 years - the last thing i said to him was "you know what, you're an asshole" and i hung up the phone.
that was it - that was the last thing he heard me say to him - i felt good when i did it - i was proud of myself - now - tonight - i am so ashamed.
i am no different than the man i had grown to hate - it's time to forgive and forget - i have made some of the same mistakes he has and you know what - he was a poor influence for me - but i think he deserves a second chance. from what my sisters tell me he really hasn't changed at all - but i am not going to let another day go by making him think i hate him and want nothing to do with him. everyday i look in the mirror and i see a spitting image of him - i can't erase my face - i am my fathers son and i am ready to embrace that.
the email i have to write isn't to him - he is going to get a phone call tomorrow p the email is for someone who is really awesome and who has disappointed me a little but - but i think i may have done my fair share of disappointing with them.
goodnight!
posted by brandon at
10:38 PM
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