i'm alot like Friedrich Nietzsche but not really...
for starters i wasn't born in the 1800's and secondly i'm not a famous philosopher nor did i not laugh when i read the title The Gay Science
but i am having a bit of problem with my existence. there's alot going on these days. there are things i love that are coming to end. decisions are being made. the people around me seem to be moving forward. or at least they're on one of those moving sidewalks you find at an airport and i'm just plain walking slowly. there's also kittens in a basket...okay the kittens had nothing to do with anything.
i woke up Monday feeling like loneliness puked on a dead end life. for the entire day it got me thinking about not the past but the future and the pursuits i wish to pursue. this thought of "why do we continue doing what we do" culminated in an email conversation with a really weird co-worker who emigrated from Mexico 5 years ago. i brought up the question of "why and what?" what is the meaning of it all and why does human kind strive for something? perhaps it's a means of distraction from the harsh ugliness of reality? perhaps its all part of something bigger than ourselves and if so, is it our own doing or is it the doing of something higher than ourselves? i know these questions seem like a cliché and guess what you're right. but they still beg to be asked.
anyhew
he responded with his own personal philosophy and it is this: i don't have the energy to ask these question and i don't care. i see belief and questioning existence as an asinine pursuit. i only care about the cold hard fact that stands before me. that doesn't mean i don't enjoy the things i do and enjoy creating it just means looking for what's underneath the surface is pointless because we'll never know and better yet, do we deserve to know?
that struck a chord with me. do what you do because you want to do it and don't waste your time questioning it...the answers may even come as you go. in other words (those words being corporate-speak) be proactive and not inactive.
after this email exchange i realized that that might be what i've been trying to do all along and didn't know. soon, hopefully, i'll be living on the other side of the planet. i've decided to do this because why the hell not...there's a cold hard fact in front of me and i've decided to use it and then cuddle with a basket of kittens
please note that some of the feelings in this post have been exaggerated to create a more dramatic tone
but i am having a bit of problem with my existence. there's alot going on these days. there are things i love that are coming to end. decisions are being made. the people around me seem to be moving forward. or at least they're on one of those moving sidewalks you find at an airport and i'm just plain walking slowly. there's also kittens in a basket...okay the kittens had nothing to do with anything.
i woke up Monday feeling like loneliness puked on a dead end life. for the entire day it got me thinking about not the past but the future and the pursuits i wish to pursue. this thought of "why do we continue doing what we do" culminated in an email conversation with a really weird co-worker who emigrated from Mexico 5 years ago. i brought up the question of "why and what?" what is the meaning of it all and why does human kind strive for something? perhaps it's a means of distraction from the harsh ugliness of reality? perhaps its all part of something bigger than ourselves and if so, is it our own doing or is it the doing of something higher than ourselves? i know these questions seem like a cliché and guess what you're right. but they still beg to be asked.
anyhew
he responded with his own personal philosophy and it is this: i don't have the energy to ask these question and i don't care. i see belief and questioning existence as an asinine pursuit. i only care about the cold hard fact that stands before me. that doesn't mean i don't enjoy the things i do and enjoy creating it just means looking for what's underneath the surface is pointless because we'll never know and better yet, do we deserve to know?
that struck a chord with me. do what you do because you want to do it and don't waste your time questioning it...the answers may even come as you go. in other words (those words being corporate-speak) be proactive and not inactive.
after this email exchange i realized that that might be what i've been trying to do all along and didn't know. soon, hopefully, i'll be living on the other side of the planet. i've decided to do this because why the hell not...there's a cold hard fact in front of me and i've decided to use it and then cuddle with a basket of kittens
please note that some of the feelings in this post have been exaggerated to create a more dramatic tone
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