brought to you by the letter "P"

this has been a really rough 12 days for me, but as the week came to a close things got better and a lot clearer.

i let myself get so high and caught up in new feelings and my head took over and didn't consult with my heart.

sometimes when things are out of whack it freaks us out a little bit and makes us feel like we are loosing something important so we get scared and we try really hard to hold onto whatever we think we are loosing and then we begin to hold on a little too hard.

that is where i was - i was trying to force something instead of letting it come naturally - i was beginning to ruin the special thing that i had started.

so all this being said - i want to say to myself that it is time to accept all these new changes in your life - and while you are excited - don't rush anything.

all in all the pain and frustration is beginning to turn into happiness and understanding.