porcelain

you close your eyes and see yourself as impenetrable steel
you look in the mirror and realize how fragile you really are

fuck you for not knowing who you are
fuck me for believing i was wanted

i made myself vulnerable because of you
i let myself think that life was ready to refresh

accept my apologies for being so disappointing
except, how could you have known i was so underwhelming

you fell in love with me based on my words
you distanced yourself when you realized how tenuous i was

we are both but shards of porcelain
we will never find true levity in ourselves