it's always the people who make you warm

thing have been really tough lately. every this is ebb and flow - i just can't seem to wrap my arms around any feelings.

i have so many people come in and walk out of my life. but there is always one who when i talk to her, when i see a message from her i smile and have a little hope.

i am sure i will fuck it up at some point. but she just seems to be a constant when it comes to feelings.

lets call her sally - our conversations are always full of sarcasm and she brings out the parts of myself that i really like. i have reservations, big reservations but they are all reservations about myself. i just need to stop expecting the worse and just take a leap of faith.

i don't know i guess we will see.